Panic Attack

This past weekend has been my first as an out and open DI Mom.  I have delved into the world of social networking with a blog, a Facebook page and a twitter account.  I am slowly navigating my way around and blabbing away about my story.  I was feeling amazing and empowered over the past 3 days.  I felt like I could not be stopped, as if the driving force behind me was powered by a million horses…..and then came this morning.  I woke up in a panic, had I just made a horrible mistake?  Letting anyone who wishes to know in on our little family dynamic?  I felt sick to my stomach all morning, and I went through the day with my head in a fog thinking about my choices and decisions.  Then all the babes fell asleep and I was finally able to sit quietly with my thoughts and rethink why I had made this leap into the public forum, and all the conviction that I felt when I started this 3 days ago came hammering down on me like a tidal wave.  I am doing the right thing, I am getting this done, I am being myself and for the first time in my life I am not letting fear conquer me.  Fingers crossed!!!!!


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